A New Post!

I totally forgot about this blog. Between my project, papers, FESIM kongress, WC-FESIM, Chenli ministry, gym and Italian trip, my time has been packed with quite a lot of stuff to do. Interestingly, I still have the time to watch tv series. hmmm....

Anyway. Just hopping by to check if this blog still existed (duh!). Later I'll write something of actual content. Or maybe not. (haha)

On Matthew 17:24-26

Tax for two at two drachma each,
From the sea a shekel granted
Ask, o man for He is not out of reach.
Hence trust, your needs fulfilled.

Which one am I?

"It is one thing for a minister to be used by God. It is another for a minister to be pleasing in the sight of God." - Paul Gunadi

Quoted by Chandra Wim today in ISCF fellowship. Truly something that bug my mind in reflections for tonight. Truly, which one am I?

Fear can hold you prisoner

Just watched the movie tonight. How the hell did I miss watching this one? This was superbly done! For you who didn't know, it's a movie back from 1994. So I kinda missed watching this over 17 years, nearly impossible with a HBO in my home since the '98. If you haven't watched it, I'm telling you: go and watch it, you must.

Boasting in our weakness

An interesting video. I bet it raises some eyebrows. I would agree to the spirit of it, but agree with it using all caution I have, for as it convey good message, it can also be translated differently. I do hope that the church can really act like God's people with integrity though, albeit continuously struggling to do so. I do hope that we may hate sins like cancer, and throw it out away as far as possible.

But more importantly, I hope that Christians can get over the differences that they have among each others, cooperate in harmony, and work together for God's glory.

Never alone

Awesome comment is awesome

"'Harry Potter' is not 'Twilight', you know; we're not selling sex."

- Emma Watson commenting on Twilight

Ms. Watson, you just got yourself a new fan.

The Tattoo

Watched the movie last night. Unexpectedly long and unexpectedly plenty of adult scene. But it was unexpectedly good as well. It's entertaining :)


Last week I got too lazy to work and stayed home with Irving the whole week. Well, mostly. Thing is, I don't have any spirit to play games or read as well somehow. So I got this crazy idea of cooking rendang after I saw the rendang that Irving's gf brought from Jakarta the day before. It was surprisingly easy to make -- albeit a little slow. I used the recipe from this particular site.

It was quite good IMHO :). Should have put more chilli though. Haha. And since I didn't want to deviate from the original recipe, i used 1 kg of beef. It took me around 3 days to finish this dish for 2-3 meals a day. Haha. Total cost: ~30 SGD (for 3 days? okay lah hor..)

Now, enough blogging. Back to confirmation report writing!

God give me strength to finish this one in time... Pretty please?

I used to work hard everyday...

...but I took an arrow to the knee.

Skyrimian joke aside. That was what I felt after I work professionally last time. It was only for a year but somehow it shifted my paradigm on dilligent-ness. I used to spend at least 2-3 hours of independent study/work in my undergrad. Now I think I cut my official work hours as much as I can. Shame on me. Shame on me.

Or maybe that's just me being lazy.


or may be it's truly an arrow took my knee.

Second Day

I spent the second day of 2012 in my sweet spot: home. Well, it's still a holiday and I got nothing better to do since 11 am, so I stayed. Nonetheless, since I started writing again, I began to revisit some pages that I haven't came into for a while. Two particular posts took my attention and made me think for a while about us: our greed, our self-justification when we think we have done something yet nothing in actuality, and our sense of justice.

If you have some free time i would love to recommend you these two interesting resources:

  1. The first one is an article from Vinoth, which I have been very glad to read as always, titled Micro-Credit Hype
  2. The second one is a two-hours documentary (narrated by Matt Damon. woot.) titled Inside Job.

I wouldn't spell what I am musing about after these two particular resources though. Haha.


No matter how low the quality of it, i'm still thankful for putting this one through

Old and New

2011 Has not been kind to me.

Not that previous years has been a totally nice, but the last one was such an ordeal. Well, I guess it was partly due to the fact that it is "last year".

Old struggles and new struggles come and goes. Some was thankfully resolved, but much are left unsolved. The oldest of all even went untouched, 2-and-a-half-year and counting. Another thing that has been eating away in my heart underwent a leap of faith, and i guess it went miserably bad. I was lonely, I was getting lazy. My ministry was in much lesser quality than what I expect them to be, while my work has been under par. I keep falling to the classic dung hole of mine, and the roller coaster swing of my quiet time was at its peak amplitude. I am grieved.

But somehow I'm still thankful. I don't really know why.

I guess it came from my faith, that God sees me as His precious son, detestable and wretched as I am (He knows and I knows how I am not worthy of all that He has given to me). And these kind of troubling events in my life was His way of disciplining me. And through that, I feel that He cares for me and wants the best out of me.

So I shall try to rise again. Maybe I will fail again, but I pray I will fail better. I guess I have to be thankful that I can still be thankful in the midst of it all.

Pray for me friends, that I may be able to do all my utmost in this year (Oh and how I am haunted by the looming shadows of my QE).

As for this blog, I'm trying to revive it again -- fingers crossed though. I will try to update it as much as I can.

Let there be light.


There was a time when I lost my desire to write and to share. There was a time when I didn't see the point of doing a blog to express my thought. I am who I am though, inconsistent as I am in doing this blog, but I do want to share and I do long to write. Today I'm giving it another go. Fingers crossed. But I still wish that "Let there be light" is the message that I convey.
  • January 1st 2012, Kristo